July 15th through the years!

I miss my husband.

Today is our 5th Anniversary & we are across the state from each other. I'm sitting here in a quiet home remembering back over the last 5 years of how we celebrated each July 15th...

2005

Our wedding was beautiful, memorable and meaningful.

Uncle Mike Silva wrote our very special vows, we were surrounded by all our friends and family and I felt beautiful. We honeymooned in gorgeous Whistler, Canada (in part because we had met in Canada) and we loved every minute of it...and each other!

2006

Year 1: restful & fun

Hubby booked a room in the ever relaxing Skamania Lodge in Washington.

We "played" tennis.....hubby got to experience first hand my lack of coordination and although he did get a little frustrated at times running after my crazy balls, we laughed a lot, he taught me a lot & soaking our tired muscles in the outdoor waterfall spa was just what we needed by the end of the night. We ate their famous seafood buffet & drank good wine.

We wished we would have booked two nights instead.

Oh! And on the way home we confirmed a purchase of a puppy from a litter that was born on our first anniversary.... Puppy dog would be named, Lucy Goosey.

2007

Year 2: things were new.

I was 4ish months prego and we had just found out it was baby GIRL Audrey! We received a transfer from sea to land and were g.r.a.t.e.f.u.l! We bought our cute little home and moved in July 1st. 15 days later, on our 2nd anniversary we were broke & both equally tired, me from all the stress moving & unpacking entails & a constant carsickness feeling a.k.a Audrey growing, and Aaron from trying to learn new roads, new people & a new emotional hormonal wife :)

We were still sleeping on our blow up Areo bed in our bedroom, we were tired, cranky from the heat, exchanged a few grumpy/mumbles of "welp, happy anniversary" and went to sleep.

2008

Year 3: yummy & sweet.

We talked about going away.

We talked about getting a babysitter.

Instead, we decided to go out to dinner, as a family :) Baby girl Audrey was 7 months. She slept while we ate & drank yummy drinks. We shared dessert & she awoke happy & eager to smile at us and everyone else. My heart was warm.

2009

Year 4: poor Eeyore

Hubby was across the state for training with the swat team. I was an uncomfortable 7 months pregnant with Ellie. It was hot, I was tired & Audrey had a terrible stomach virus

.all.week.long.

I remember plenty of fluids (minus urine) coming out of both her little ends all hours of the day & night. I remember being out of Tylenol at a crucial fever moment & waddling through Albertson's to get more Popsicles, Gatorade and medicine. I also remember Audrey seemed very tired on our way home from the store, so I thought instead of going home I would take advantage of being out of the house & just keep driving into the country roads..

I remember taking a wrong turn and ending up on a never-ending winding road that I was sure would eventually straighten up. When the road eventually ended & turned to gravel about 20min away from home, I decided now would be a good time to turn back around and go through all those curves again.

I remember she suddenly awoke gagging.

I later remember thoroughly hosing out her car seat & washing the liners. I remember sobbing while giving Audrey a bath. I felt badly for her and felt exhausted and miserable and homesick for my love. I remember she leaned in for a hug saying "Come mere Mommy" to comfort me. I cried harder it was so sweet. Hubby sent me a BeAuTiFuL arrangement of our wedding flowers the Stargazer Lily, as well as combined with a dozen roses. Yes, I cried more. I also smiled a lot more after that.

2010

Year 5: loving life

Once again, my husband is across the state for training. We have tried to busy ourselves up, which most days isn't hard with two youngsters. I have been pretty distracted & enjoyed having best friends Terese & Noah stay the night and two full days with us. I received a spectacular TALL bouquet with yellow Lillies, roses and lots of others I have no idea what they are, other than beautiful. It's bright and cheery with reds, blues, purple and yellow.

I have been giddy all day looking at them. But I miss my favorite friend.

I miss my Aaron now.

I love him & he loves me.

Last year when I was upset, lonesome and mopey my wonderful Mom came over to help me & gave me a card that said something I've now passed on to others because it is so true...

"It's not when or how you celebrate, it's that you have reason to--and you do!!"

And do we ever! We love each other dearly and almost more importantly, we truly like the other person... a lot! So here's to celebrating our marriage as a whole, each day of each year.!!!

Happy 5th Anniversary my Darling!!!!!